Any New Year's Resolutions?

I have all the same ones I had last year, probably, if I made any last year. Let's see:

1. Lose weight. Yes, probably the most common New Year's Resolution ever. But I really am tired of carrying around extra poundage that is starting to make my hips and knees and back feel old. I'm too young to feel old.

2. Get back into music. Groan. Another wannabe musician. Vocalist, actually. I really suck at playing any kind of instrument (though I have to say, I've never tried the kazoo). But I have some credentials, so give me a break. I've sung for money, that makes me a professional.

3. Start my own business. Yes, yes, yes, I've had "my own business" for years, but it isn't really MY own business because I'm not the one who does the stuff that makes the money. I get the thrill-a-minute job of doing the bookkeeping. Yay.
a. Keep up with my bookkeeping better.

I think that gets most of the standards out of the way, perhaps with the addition of the one to write more.

Here's one I would sincerely like to achieve this year, though, no matter if the others happen or not:

BE HAPPY

I think most of us know that one is deceptively simple. As I chug along life's path toward the big 4-0, however, it becomes more and more important. I've been stopping for a moment here and there and pondering...do I want the rest of my life to look like what has come before now? Am I simply accepting what is because I feel helpless to change it? Or afraid to change it? Am I weirdly comfortable in my unhappiness?

Don't get me wrong, I have a lot of people and things in my life to be happy and thankful about. But looking at the overall picture, there is a grayness over everything. A feeling of, "I wish, but I could never...because I'm not good/pretty/thin/smart/talented/nice enough to deserve..." Beggars can't be choosers, after all. I don't want to be a beggar anymore.

So, do you hold on to what you have and just try to change your attitude about it? Or do you take a chance and let it go in the hopes of gaining something better?